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2009-05-08T21:41:00.000-07:00

hey bloggy.
:D
long time agn hey

hahahah.

well now, i wna start a new chapter in life. since im no longer a single lady anymr ;D
hahaha, ahhhh yes ! finallyyyyyyyy, i've decided to settle down. with someone i realise has bn with me all along. had been with me even whn im down, cause of other stoopid guys. wait, i wudnt say stoopid. it'd be very mean. non-jodoh guys i met la kay. hahaha.
did i mention hus he. th one hu has open up my eyes to a whole new colourful world now. heee. his name is Tahiran. (:
i did mwntion him a few blog posts back ryte. the one hu gave me tht lovely bracelet. yeahhhh. thts my bby (: th singgah-selalu boy ! lol.
and coincidently today, is our 1st month anni. yeah yeahhhh. and im celebrating it with him ltr! since im alr in m'sia now. kl actually. jus fetched my mum frm aust btw :D
hahahaha. yeaaa, cant wai to meet him ltr.
how i wosh i cud post some of his pic ive taken
but, stoopid hp. i forgot to bring th usb cable. hahaha
nehmind nxt time i guessss :D

k chaooo now!

p\s: ilysm bby, happy 1st mth. u've made me very happy :D

2009-01-26T10:30:00.000-08:00

your words hit me hard.

and i dun blame u.

ure right.

i will..

2009-01-26T09:53:00.000-08:00

1 : 5 2 a m !

what am i doing right now? why am i not sleeping yet?
why is my head spinning? why has it got to be this way? why now?
idk ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. tsktsk! these warm trickles of damp tears.
tsk.. ):

i still look at you every night before i go to sleep u know. hmm.
awwwwwwwwwwww man. this sucks!
fuck, im gg to sleep now.
cruel world.
BYE!

p/s; god, spare me?

2009-01-26T04:07:00.000-08:00

8:08pm, Kuala Lumpur ;

yeap. pretty much had fun.
but no. hati tk tenteram. adek told me he gg ns in 2days' time?
uhhuh, i guess so. what comes popping in my mind is: asl tk bilang? hmm..
that night if i hadn't msg u, i wudn't have known tht ure gg ubin right ? idk anythg bout u now.
stranger? haiz. i'm still counting. idk what fr? but as days passed, that day seemed more impossible. out of those many hearts hus willing to accept this dirty self of me, asl die jgk yg aku mengharap? maybe becos he doesnt know eh?

but then again, if ure reading this: i wish u all th best fr ns eh? fr all you doubt, i've always missed you. but maybe now my words dun convince u alr eh. how sad. i cnt stand th thought of gg far away frm someone hus ever made me wait, willingly. 4mths, incase u nvr knew. 4 mths & 9days, its bn tht long since i knew ily. but like u said, duno if this love could remain this way. go far. when it can't even feel u right now?
shitt ah, i just hate it to be hanging lidis. haiz..

just wished u knew.

dot.
dot.
dot.

im coming home tmr. i guess shaikh's th only one expecting my come-homee msg.
babe, be with me through this one. can't hold these tears any longer..
i know u'd understand.

so longg.

p/s; and gdbye.

2009-01-14T17:57:00.000-08:00

SHAIKHHHH!

hahahaha. sadded i dun have a picture of his botak-self now. :D
if not, it'll b sucha laugh! hahaha, i guess i hav to steal one eh?

shakeshakeshakeitshaikh! woootss.! heeeee. mann, i love laughing my ass off with ya.

lets do it agn ltr eh? i shall tell u agn th joke about th SIPUTBABI! xD

godd, i still cn recall how u laughed to tears upon upon hearing bout tht joke!
whatttt ony lahhh u. hahas.

well actually i have nthg to blogg ryte now; im in school ahhh. isit me or isit jus soooo mendakk uh? hahaha. kimek, copy2 qn cam tkder motive ajer? :DD so lets jus forget bout th work lah, k?
HOHOHOOO!

p/s; ily, but i jus don't seem to grab a hold of you?

2009-01-13T17:40:00.000-08:00

yo yo yoo! haha!
k lame ~

kimek, my comp jahanam siol! well, what to do . for now, i'm school. duno what kejadah lah th use of this e-learning shitt . it's better to hav teacher's around tau . and now, u see, im bored. cos like most of my assignments must print. and all th slideshows i've done reading it . th quizzes, uhhh, attepmt alr lor . now left nthg to do alr. shit, like crap seh. hmm..

these past few days or week, i've not been feeling well actually. and somtimes i tink im such a loner. hahaha. but yeah, no boyfriend no entertainment. i love someone but i'm not thr. its a different thing than having an official boyfriend. far far different. but nvm about tht. i've still got other important things to concentrate on u see.

but again, these few days. there's this someone, so warm, been here for me. hah! shaikh. th botak guy. hes cute tho. hahaha. yeah, i risk a guy if i get any closer to him. u tink i better not? idk. and lemme say something, too high hopes ain't good ryte? it may jus crash on down anytime? hmm.. but den agn, thanks shaikh. for filling up this lonely space beside me. hahaa. we are such a laugh ayee babe? ;DD

oh yesss! haha. frget to mention. someone gave me this lovely bracelet, i tink like 3 days ago? hahaha. and what's better is, below th sponge of th bracelet box, there was this note hidden. hahaha. i dint realise till th next day when i was playing around with th box. lol. it say,
"I really2 admire u Anis, i duno whether u will? Diam2 tau.."
HAHA! ain't tht cute? plus th hadwriting's cute too :D whoo? no no! tkley tau. k maybe jus a clue. his name starts with a T. hahahah. but hey, thanks fr this lovely bracelet. very sweet of u aye. heeee ((:

well, im done for now. i tink i'll update agn tmr since i'll be coming bac to sch to use this budget + laggy comp. and, i'll be meeting up Shaikh agn after school. woooooots! :D
CHAOOOO!

2008-12-31T00:29:00.000-08:00

so yeahhh, it's been like whut? 1 week or so ?
since i last posted. hmm..

i just got bac this morn, around 2am? frm M'sia. since Sat, I've been away with Family. first stop, gone to Umbai, Melaka. To have a big bigg sumptuous seafood treat with th also big big family of mine. 4 cars ok! :D

beautifullll... yeahh. th scene, th sea, th sound of th wavess landing gently on th sand.. at tht moment i only had one person in my mind. yup, its him.. tsk! k flashback OVER. so, i had my stomach so full equals to boncett at th end of th meal. woahhh~ tkleh angs :DD

second stop; after th rest went home, my family decided to stick around at Melaka. find a hotel to check in but it was 3am by th time, and practically all hotels thr (including motels) are fully booked. and ayah waqs alr sick and tired, guess he sees stars all round alr by tht time. so we decided to went home ajer. buddenn, upon reaching Yong Peng, ibu told ayah, " How bout we go to Seremban?" and by then, its alr like, 4:30am? so jyeahhh, Seremban we went! hahaas. don't ask about me! adek, iqah and me slept all th way in th ccar. relek kepaaaa! but i woke up at 7am, and ayah pulled in at Pagoh's perhentian. I accompanied ayah to buy breakfast, but bfr tht i went to th toilet and guess who i saw in th mirror? MONSTER! xD

lols! dgn muke basi baru bgn tido, celak pon dah gone, kening minah aku yg cacattt. hahahaha, AMEK KAUU :DDDD

aper lagy? quickly ran bac to th car and grabbed my toothbrush and facial wash, and BEROS AHHHH MUKE BASI AKU! hahahah! aftr, PHEWWW~ segar sikit lah kan. tapi, muke natural beauty abes. EHEM! hahahaaa. alaaa, natural haprakk, muke cinonek abes. bahaaa! so bought breakfast, roti bakar with kaya. thanks to tht cik mamat, sedap seh abg buat roti bakarr! haha.

and off we went to Seremban, to
PORT DICKSON! of alll th resorts thr, we checked in at Tiara Beach Resort. yeahhh,. cool la kat sane tau. hahaha. so me and my adeks2 threw our bags and off to th swimming pool! hahahah. but sadded, anis ngan "uuuzz" heeee! ((: so tkleh swimming. so me, with my blacky2 sleeveles and shorts, SANTAI AHHHH xD got my Mp3, my bubblegum, my preciousss Sampoerna, what could be better? teeheeee ;DD i spent most of th 3hrs under th scorching sun, huffing and puffing, eating ie cream, "sun-tanning" till i become "hotstuff" la kannn. hahaha. one thg bout th m'sians, diorg jakon eh tgk kite sap rkk? hehe!

and oh yea, i did railed in some guys. haha! but hey, i jual mahal tauuuu. i threw back those "fishes" in th sea :DD

so after one nite thr, th next morn went to Muar. Checked in at Muar Traders Hotel. oklah tu hotel, comfortable ajer eh . but th scenery outside t balcony, wahhhhh~ Allah rly made th world such a beautt aye? hehee. angiin peyy kuat! lols.

th motive we stopped at Muar is bcos ibu wan to eat mi bandung kat sane. whr she got th idea? Chef Wan's msk2 show. hahahaha :D
hmm, so by tht day, it was alr Tuesday. aftr checking out, straight headed to Singgah Selalu. mane lagy lah kn? teeheeee ;DD sampai jer di situ, i tried to peeped kalau si mamat botak ader kat situ. hahaha. meti ader la kn. hari2 keje mahhh; carwash guy peh. hehe! who? Tahyran laaa. hahah. th guy who fall fr this all-time hotstuff of Singgah Selalu. :DDD kk i kembang seyyy. tk cute xP so yeah, ate thr, and played around with Fateha. adek and me cui kat No. 73! hehe. till now we duno what's his name. but he kinda got hooked onto my adeq? guess so~ da several kali jgk die bbl ngan adek. hehe. ehemm! ;D

den i saw Tahyran, buy rkk. hehe! and he saw me. our eyes met. cheydebahhh. k nthg laaa. serious la. i ony anggap him as one of a gd fren hu happens to have a huge crush on me, thats all. i've no heart fr him. since my heart dah gone dah. slowly searching fr him. hmmm.

fr tht past 4days, it's you tht i've been thinking of 24/7. non-stop. u cn bet on tht. of all th guys hu texted me saying they'll miss me while im away, wasting 5cents leaving me those gdnight msgs, i only missed th one hu didnt even texted me gdbye. not tht he doesnt knw or doesnt wanto, he dint had th chance to. hmmm... yeah, i missed him th most throughout th trip. in fact, im thinking of him right now.. 5 days to his 20th bday, and anothr big day th day aftr. tsk! and im stuck here, cnt rly do anythg. wht am i dg then? just following th flow.. i've faith in fate. god knows best fr me. hmm. meanwhile, let me just tell you God in case u duno? i rly love him. like how Hawa loved Adam.

k, im done fr now.

will update agn soooon.

p/s; sometimes, i just wonder. do ure magic God.,

make it work, i rly do love him. does he knw? idk.

2008-12-22T08:42:00.000-08:00

it's 1:09am;

gonna go off soon, so i thod a short one would do fr th day lah eh .
basically, today just stayd home. only tht i went fr dance prac in th morn. wahhh, ridzuan torture rabaak, standard ahhh. nxt yr dh SYF babe :DD YAY! am excited laaa. hahaha.
at home, MENDAKS SIAK -___- had my fone with, and i received a msg frm Tyrann. My new peminat frm singgah selalu's carwash. haha. botak-fair-chinese-lookalike dude. my age, so we kinda cliche well. yeahhh. budden, nthg beats my hotstuff.
speaking of him, I MISS HIM! warghhhhhh. like he always say, imy like th stars above? smthg lidat lahhh. hes all words (: lols. Mirah say i must gv him some space abit. but wahhhhhh, tk smpi hati nk jauhkn dri gtu :DD hahaha. well yahhh. ppd die dah low .

he hotstuff mah, lyn rmi sgt org? its okay. i'll wait lor .since my ppd maseh loaded kan ? thanks to Mama (: heeee.
kay then till here now. CHAOOOO!

p/s; 3simplewords- imy (:

2008-12-16T00:30:00.000-08:00

well i did say i loveeee going to this regular lepak hangout fr family in JB ryteee? ahh yes, so they're practically th reason why i love it over thr! from left: my niece; Nurani Faiqah, mybaby; Fatehaa, mysupercutestuff; Haikall, lastly mysweetgirl; Nanaaa!

uhhhuhhh2, ni sumer2 my anak angkat tau tauuuu :D hahas. sumer got my face! hahaha. ok tk, bedek xD but yeaaa, they're th reason i rly get excited gg thr. haha! apart frm th good fodd ovr thr, aftr eating i'll straight go looking fr them, and play2. alaaaa u know, wht kids love to do. heee. this 3 kids are siblings, Nana being th eldest (6 yrs old), Haikal abg nyee (5yrs old), and my cutiepiee who cant rly talk much and lovesss eating telurrr :D, Fatehaaa (1yrs old). lols.

actualy idk y i blog abt them but i know i miss 'em. yeahhh, tsktskk! heh. (: k i have more of thier pics! tadaaaa~~

Kay, I'm DONEEE! :D

p/s; bby, everynight i even see your face on my pillow.
so i hugged it tight ((:

2008-12-11T22:22:00.000-08:00

yohooo!

GODDDD DAMN, i hadd soooooo much2 fun in KL. now i jus reached hm aftr two days reached singapore. cos i spent th last 2 days at my cousins' place. so YEA, all about high high high over thr ayeeee :D so let's just allow th pics do th expression-ing! hahas!

the first day; (:

karaoke night; (:

oh yes- one more confidential place; ((:

this is when im high while dancing babe :DD
ty Idul fr th candid pic, dun ask me whts on my mind at tht time. cause some ppl (ehh ehh) made me drank 'somethg' la ehh. (:

moving on to KLCC; (:

finally th last day; (:

we decide to bajet2 uh skt ehh, eat at kdai kopi babe :D

so this is Idul Hadith, my bestestt of th bestesest cuzzieeee in ma family. heee, he's young yet matured. he's big but small inside andd funnnn. my ciggy buddy. spent most of my time with him thr. and i cherish him babe! :D

so yeahhhhhh, that's allllll. lols. GREAT TIMEEEE, yipeeee (: but as much fun i had thr, i still missed my hotstuff tho. psst! he's my property now tau. KIMIKO ! u don't kaypo and potong my jalan ahhhhh xD i love himmmmmm, BLUEK =P and thnks hotstuff fr telling me bout tht song. very sweet of you. (: next time must sing fr me ahhhhh, idc. its a must mustttt :P

kay then, outsss lah babes! :D

p/s; and maybe meant it well too? ily,
and you have th rest of my lifetime to be ready, love.

2008-12-07T07:42:00.000-08:00

hey everybodyyy,

so yess, i'll make my post short tonight. cause' im gg on a break to Kl tmr morn! wow-weeee! oh yeaaa, widout my parents; isn't tht just a dream come truee. and i'm for sure gonna hav a great time with my deardearr cuzzies((: heck yeahhh. nightlife is great too ya know ;D okayy then, gotta leave fr my cuzzies' place now. sleepover (((: im gonna only miss my hotstuff here. sian i've to leave him here. don't wery babe, i'll be back as sooon as possible ayteee? gonna miss you alotsss! kay, to alll. HAVE A GOOD DAY. miss me! :D

p/s; i just hope my mind's gonna be at peace at peace startg frm tmr,
away frm th frustrating parents!

2008-12-04T23:20:00.000-08:00

hey bloggy;

yea, im smiling. ony in tht pic. tht's th irony. why are my days now turning out like dis? it sucks ok! it seems to me tht everything i do turns out to be th wrong thg, like im de wrong one. ok, maybe i did made my mistakes. budden agn, why do u tink i've turned out t be lidis? whtever mistakes i've done in th past, by all means, have passed long long time alr. i've seen th consequences and i've learnt my lessons. there u hv it! isnt tht enough done? imma growing kid, i dowanna live my life knowing tht i've done a big big sin to them. doesn't it ever come to their mind tht ppl repent ? huhh?! haiz, nehmind it's okay. its not like i cn do anythg to turn thg s around fr now. I'm praying fr t better tho. verynight, with tears filled up my eyes. i cry myself to sleep. hmm.
oh bby, how i wish your with me every night. so i cn cry myself to sleep, in your arms. how secured i'd feel. how i wish u knew. hmm..

p/s; irmy bby. whr are you? ):

2008-12-03T09:47:00.000-08:00

YAYY! i like finally have a new successful blog, all thanks to my dearest MIRAHbella (((: yeaa, thanks babe. i really owe u one, even tho u say its like ur not dg anythg fr me. baaa! well wow-weee~ i've got a new blog! hahaha :D i've been craving fr ths since along time actually, but no one was like willing enough to spend time doing ths fr me. cause' im like too lazy and too stupid to do it myself. teeheeee! xD well, now i've got one! :D

wellllll, what shall we talk about? oh yess, i've got some pics of my outing with th fam. wanna see? teeheee! (((:

hahaha, no have my pic cause' i was too busy eating! heck yeahh ((: i love pizza, wht do u expect? lols.
so yea had fun, we had pizza at jb. save money tau buy thr. :D bajet mahh! teeheeee! so aftr tht sumptuos meal we had, we went around the shopping complex fr awhile then went t Pandan Pasaraya. Bought our usual pirated VCDs, hahaha! and yeaa, i bought my treat (ehem!) ;D Aftr tht, we drove to our regular lepak place, Singgah Selalu. gaahhh, i love gg thr ok! particularly, becos of th sweet scent of SHISHAAA, th waiterss :D, guys. and not forgetting, th cute lil' Fatehaaaa! heee. and, i've got to admit ok; mat2 m'sia skrg dah majuu ok. hot siakkkkk! :D LOLS. but then horrr, my hotstuff lagy hot seyh. teeeheee! and i'm missing him a whole lot ryte now ): and now too, he confem in his royal bed alr. heee.

klahhh, actually no time anymore to type more. singe tuh, haaaa! dah mengamuk suro tutup comp. well, it is 2am alr! (((: k then gonna hit th pillows. gdmorning! :DDD

p/s; i just hope, someday, they'll accept you th way you are,
cause' tht's how u made my love work bby. ily, alott (: